November 22, 1963
Woody Creek
To William J. Kennedy: [No Relation to JFK]
I am tired enough to sleep here in this chair, but I have to be in town at 8:30 when Western Union opens, so what the hell. Besides, I am afraid to sleep for fear of what I might learn when I wake up. There is no human being within 500 miles to whom I can communicate anything -- much less the
fear and loathing that is on me after today's murder. God knows I might go mad for lack of talk. I have become like a psychotic sphinx -- I want to kill because I can't talk.
[...]
We now enter the era of the shitrain, President Johnson and the hardening of the arteries. Neither your children or mine will ever be able to grasp what Gatsby was after [...] The killing has put me in a state of shock. The rage is trebled. I was not prepared at this time for the death of hope, but here it is. Ignore it at your peril.
[...]
Fiction is dead. mailer is an antique curiosity. The stakes are now too high and the time too short. What, O what, does Eudora Welty have to say? Fuck that crowd. The only hope now is to swing hard with the right hand, while hanging onto sanity with the left. Politics will become a cockfight and reason will go by the boards. There will have to be somebody to carry the flag.
My concept of the new novel would have fit this situation, but now I see no hope for getting it done if, indeed, an publishing houses survive the Nazi scramble that is sure to come. How could we have known, or even guessed? I think we have come to the point.
Send word, if you still exist--
HST